As soon as you say “I messed up and I gotta do something to clean up my life before I can go back to Christ and be received by Him.” Then you’ve fallen into a trap. You should rather rise up and run straight back to the Father, you won’t make yourself any purer and cleaner by staying away from Him.
MP3: http://illbehonest.com/rise-up-and-run-straight-back-to-christ-tim-conway